07/28/16

My Whole Foods Journey | … now where’s the donut?!?

So, here we are smack dab in the middle of week 3 in my Whole Foods/Detox diet journey. And I have tons of energy, my skin is clearing, I sleep more soundly, my clothes fit more loosely, and my allergies are improving….

BUT…

All I can think about is the platter of warm Krispy Kreme donuts that are up the hallway and around the corner in my team’s common area.

Soft.

Flaky.

Moist.

The sheeted, crystallized sugar sticking to my lip gloss.

Seriously y’all. It was bad.

As I was sharing these daydreams with a coworker and my battle to break the sugar addiction, she suggested I read the Whole 30 Timeline. She was like, “It’s so funny and you will be shocked how accurate it is!” Having gone through a whole foods revolution herself, I consider her a very reliable source.

And so I marched myself to my computer, away from the wicked donuts (I have reverted to thinking of sugar as sin so that maybe I will be less inclined to indulge), and typed into Google, Whole 30 Timeline, and here is what I found… The Whole 30 Timeline 

….. {I highly recommend the read. It’s pretty funny.}

So, here is where I am at on the timeline, Day 12-15… Please read below for a small sampling of my current psyche.

Days 12-15: Boundless energy! Now give me a d*** Twinkie.

“Hurray! The slump is over! Your pants fit again! Your energy levels are better than normal – you’re downright Tigger the bouncing tiger! But something weird is happening. You’re dreaming. Not crazy nightmare or strange surrealist dreams, either. Incredibly normal and realistic dreams – about donuts. Or Twinkies. Or Snickers.* In your mind, sometimes you get caught and feel guilty. Sometimes you just brazenly eat the contraband. But then, the feelings start following you into the waking hours. Suddenly, you’re craving things you don’t even like. (For me, it’s Diet Coke and Twinkies, for Melissa Hartwig, it was fast-food cheeseburgers!) Your co-workers’ heads transform into giant Girl Scout Cookies as you gaze on in disbelief.

All joking aside, though, this phase gets really intense and for some people. This is the part of the program where our minds try to drive us back to the comfort of the foods we used to know. Our food relationships are deeply rooted and strongly reinforced throughout the course of our lives and breaking through them is really big deal. Journaling can be especially enlightening and helpful during this phase, and helpful for reflection later. Take some time to jot down what you’re craving, how you’re feeling and what tools you’re using to work through the cravings.”

…………

And this is SO, SO true. I am not even a huge fan of a Krispy Kreme donut. I mean, they are good & all, and 2 weeks ago I wouldn’t have even given eating one a second thought, but now, they are all I can think about!

But, I am determined to stay the course. Sure, there will be slip-ups here and there, and my days & choices won’t always be perfect, but I have learned to control what I can control, and let go of the rest! Good life lesson, not just in eating and diet choices, but in all aspects of life. And this temporary craving for all things that are sweet, doughy, and sugared? This is something I can control, and I will press on throughout my day.

And tomorrow as well.

Time to pour another cup of coffee with unsweetened almond milk. Let’s call that a cup full of resolve, shall we?!?

Resolve tastes pretty good.

xoxo…

Share
07/26/16

Take it all, Take it all…

Every morning, it’s the same routine.

Up around 6:00 or 6:15, make up, hair, dress, grab breakfast, and at my desk with hot coffee in hand by 7:45 am sharp.

It’s an almost-mindless routine at time, something I do without even thinking. But, on my drive in, I have started a new tradition. It’s a time to center myself, to pray, to enjoy and savor the quiet, to de-stress, to de-worry, and to just simply Be. I listed to podcasts on occasion, but almost always, I listen to some praise and worship songs. Current obsession? Passion.

There is one particular song that has been become a morning prayer, a song I refer to as my “heart song.” You probably all know it, but the lyrics say, “My heart is yours, my heart is yours… take it all, take it all, my life in your hands!” Not sure if I should be admitting it, but I lift my right hand (while keeping my left hand firmly placed on the steering wheel) as I sing as an open-handed and open-heart offering.

But, besides the chorus, which I L-O-V-E love, the first verse begins with, “I give You my life, I give You my trust, Jesus. You are my God. You are enough, Jesus.” And I found myself awestruck one morning as I sang those lyrics, almost absentmindedly. So routinely. And I thought to myself, do I live in light of that truth? Do I give Jesus ALL my trust? ALL my life? Is He enough when the rest of the world fails me? IF this, my current circumstances, is all there is, Is He enough for me? Is He my sustaining force?

I almost had to pull the car over in this moment because I was so overwhelmed. So convicted. I wanted to drop to my knees and ask forgiveness, because I do not live in light of these truths and beliefs. I struggle with relinquishing control. {As if I have any real control… I know, I know.}  I struggle with belief. I struggle with complete and total trust. I want to live an impassioned, inspirational, encouraging, faith-filled, “that girl has Jesus coming out of her every pore”, kind of life, but my fear of failure, my fear of always being alone, and my fear of the unknowns in my future, paralyze me.

And so, I pray through it.

I praise through it.

I lift my hands and worship through it.

For He is my God, and He is enough. He gave all for me, and all to Him I owe. You can never out give Jesus.

I can never trust Him enough. I can never call on Him enough. I can never praise Him enough.

And so, this morning, I plugged my phone into the USB jack, I turned the volume up, and hit Play.

My heart is yours…

My heart is yours…

Take it all, Take it all…

My life, my future, my hope, my everything, is in Your capable Hands.

And I trust You…

I will choose to trust you.

Weekly. Daily. Hourly.

xoxo

Share