Category Archives: Share my Heart

05/10/17

Awe

You know those moments in life where you just stand in complete and total amazement?

One of those moments where it is hard to catch your breath, and His presence is felt so keenly? So closely?

Perhaps, it is in those moments of complete solitude and reflection where I feel my most real self. Where I feel completely whole, loved, and held. I have had a few of those moments lately, and I wanted to share them with you…

But, first of all, I have been somewhat absent, and I apologize for that, but life sort of took over and I haven’t had a lot of time to write and post lately, and even less to sit alone, quiet & still and have time to think. But, the good in all of that is the lessons that He teaches you when He can slow you down enough to see your little, seemingly insignificant, life in the prospective of his great, big, perfect plan. I love when He gives me experiences & moments, glimpses if you will, into how I can factor into it all. It’s like a little kiss on the cheek or a winking eye from your Savior that let’s you know to carry on, Mighty Warrior.

For me, It was in the landscape of Yosemite; a place that everywhere you turned was more beautiful than the vista you had just seen and experienced.

Can’t you almost just hear these rushing rapids? Such incredible power.

Above is Bridal Veil Falls, a waterfall dubbed that name because the mist looks like a wedding veil as it hits the rocks below and sprays up all around you. I wish I had gotten a closer picture, as we did hike right up to the base of the waterfall, but the mist was so thick that my glasses fogged over and the camera lens was covered in water drops, so this had to do, and I think it’s so picturesque.

How often do you get to hike with your boss amidst vast, giant sequoias and California Redwoods?

How can anyone not be awed by nature?

How can someone look at a waterfall or a mountain formation or giant sequoias so tall and so rotund than even the tallest  person in the group looks terribly tiny?

How can you not be in awe of the Creator amidst some of His greatest creation?

As I was rummaging through the gift shop, I was flipping through a book (mostly pictures) on the history and different landmarks in Yosemite, I was approached by one of the salespersons, an elderly woman who remarked that she had worked in the Park for over 30 years and knew an awful lot about the Park and did I have any questions about the book. I told her it was my first time here and I was interested in the history of it and the surrounding areas.

She began to tell me that “over 200 million years ago, scientists and geologists believe that Yosemite and all its natural elements were growing underground… and then after Pangaea occurred following the Big Bang, the rocks and the grounds beneath us receded, and Yosemite emerged from the ground.” She ended her science lesson with “And suddenly, there it was!” I smiled and replied, “Yes, I agree with you on one of those statements- it was suddenly there, but it was spoken into being by the Creator of the universe at the time of creation.” Immediately following my response, my heart hurt inside my chest as I watched her lips purse and her eyes blink back at me a few times, and then she very quickly told me that the book was $10.95 and if I wanted to purchase it, she would meet me at the front counter. And with a spin of her hips, she was off and away in the opposite direction. She couldn’t get away from me fast enough!

Having lost interest, I returned the book to its shelf and I prayed a seed as planted as I exited the General Store.

I feel humbled and truly grateful to commune and fellowship with my Savior as I enjoy His creation, and I hope and pray that He be made evident among the rocks, crags, waterfalls, river rapids, and even in the wildlife. Scripture says that even the rocks cry out in worship, and I felt it all so keenly on my day at Yosemite.

Feel blessed and truly grateful for these crazy coworkers of mine, pictured above, and the way they speak truth into me and over me almost daily. May we continue to be salt and light wherever our travels take us!

So, I encourage you… get outside, take a walk, take a hike, get out on a beach, or even in your own backyard and become still. Quiet. Reflective. And ask for Him to teach you a new lesson that day.

He will.

xoxo….

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09/02/16

Rescue.

Rescue.

As women, we have probably spent the majority of our childhood, young adolescent, and even adult years dreaming of the rescue; of being rescued. There is something in us that desires rescue. And even more importantly, that needs it.

A familiar passage of scripture.

22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray.Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.

25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake.26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.

27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

29 “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.” — Matthew 14:22-33 

In Shauna Niequist’s latest book, Present over Perfect, she explores this familiar scripture. At one of their worship services, her husband’s spiritual mentor (who is also a Jesuit priest) took the congregation through this exercise. He would take a passage of scripture, read it aloud, and invite them into imagine themselves in the story.  What does it smell like? What does it sound like? What do you see around you? What can you taste? Which character in the story are you shadowing as? 

Experiencing scripture in this way; in this quiet, still, imaginative, experiential way, allows believers to experience a familiar passage anew. Shauna recalls, like many of us, knowing the story “backwards and forwards” and remembers Peter’s trepidation, when fear took over and he begins to sink, and then receives the scolding from His Savior. Then steps out again– a little longer and further this time — keep going Peter!… and then inevitably, sinks again. And then the scolding. Again.

We feel scolding too. It stings a little each time, even though, we should be used to it by now. And we respond. I know, I know. I will try harder. Focus harder. Study further. Explore more. I promise next time will be different. 

But, before Jesus scolds Peter, first he reaches for him. He rescues him.

We oftentimes get this part wrong, don’t we? We picture the fear, the falter, the subsequent failure, the scolding, and then the hand of help offered. Knowing we were not capable of doing it by ourselves.

But, the rescue comes first. When Peter begins to falter, Jesus immediately reaches out a hand before He says a word.

Have we wrongfully been living a life that tries to walk alongside a Jesus that is scolding, disappointed, reprimanding while we are there beside him falling & falling and then, at the last possible moment, grabs us up and saves us?

When you are teaching a child to swim, do you lecture them when they begin to struggle? No! You see them start to flounder and sink, and you reach out. Immediately. You come to their aid. Their rescue. You would scoop them up 100 times, if necessary, until they learned, and our Heavenly Father feels the same way about us. He thrills in the rescue.

Rescue. 

A word I have dreamed of my entire life. Fantasized. An idea that has lolled around in my mind and heart since childhood. It’s an action that is inherent and needing deep within our spirit.

Instead, walk alongside a Jesus that has nothing but unconditional and everlasting love pouring from His eyes when He gazes upon you. A man who will rescue and rescue and rescue again. A man who will bring you to safety, despite our fears, failures, and faithlessness.

A Savior.

Today, rest easy, Close your eyes. Inhale. Exhale. And then picture yourself walking out on water. And then picture yourself being rescued.

Our Savior. 

My Savior. 

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